bossy hooker...

I told Sharron last night.

It was all bottled up.

Told her about Ah Fong the bossy prostitute.

I was afraid of telling Sharron I paid for sex.

But Sharron was so understanding
and reminded me she understood that we were both away from each other.

I DO know that there's no one else i'm in love with but her.

I'm sure a lot of people will not understand what I'm saying.

I remember I used to be like them.

Used to mistake sex for love.

And now sex is really just sex at times.

It doesn't make it good, right or fair.
But I do realise it's possible to have sex with someone you don't really care about or love.

It's just that I choose to care about them.

Last night Em left an sms wanting sex i think.

I don't like how she dropped me off the face of the earth.

And now without being honest has "decided" to take me back.

She never even apologised for acting all funny when she didn't want to meet up with me before.

That was when she was trying to get back with her ex.

Ahh well.

At least she doesn't have to be my gf.

Certainly don't know if she'd be able to hold a candle to how loving Sharron is to me.

And I always tell Sharron how much she means to me. Day and night. Every single day.

Anyway... back to Ah Fong.

This Ah Fong was telling me how to squeeze her.


How to gently scratch her back.


"Don't squeeze too hard ah!"

"Don't suck ah, lick only."


Sharron was cracking up but good.

I can share everything with Sharron, proof that she's my best friend and soul mate.

Speaking of love...

i loved the ham sandwich i made last night.

Whole wheat dinner roll.
Freshly toasted in the oven.

Then loaded with fresh basil.

Virginia ham.
English mustard.
Cherry tomatoes.
Smear of mayo.
Ementhal cheese.

Should have added maybe some cumin or marjoram.

It was gorgeous tho.

There's nothing like a sandwich made from fresh bread.

There's also nothing like being bossed around by a lady of the night.