bellow, yelp or scream

It's been a week since I've written.

Inside there's a feeling of an imploding heart.

Collapsing into itself.

I look towards skyscape.

Up on cloud castles.

And wonder if I will one day live up there.

Where I look down on emotions, that grip us like vines.

And dragging me down to the earth.

Finally when I'm able to see everything

not just the streets ahead

but the words yet to be spoken

the caresses yet to uncurl from my arms...

when i can do that...

i wonder if that's what life up there is like.

I've been having a difficult time

getting out of bed

and getting anywhere...

i hope that anything i do here

day to day

actually

does

something

for someone

a sigh that comes

from deep inside my gut

erupts like a bellow yelp or scream

am i in a dark dreary dream?

and the only thing

that lifts me

is the scent

of chocolate

and flowers

the smell

of comfort

of love

and

memories

of being

in the arms

of reassured

warm

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speaking of dark and dreary I decided to treat myself to Maple Syrup.

So I took some stale rye bread and dipped it in beaten egg (add dash of sugar and salt and pepper and milk).

Fried it, topped with Maple Syrup.

Maple is such a wonderfully toffee-esque caramel even smoky flavours coursing through it.

We're accused all the time of being animals for anything related to blood.

Yet think nothing of drinking the 'blood' of this maple tree - which is what the syrup is; the lifeblood that runs through the bark trunk leaves of this mighty plant.

It's something vegans can now agonise over too.

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